Self esteem
Walking along the roads of the city, I see many people. People of different sizes, different heights, different races, different looks, different ways people carry themselves and different “first impressions” people leave on me. I have high expectations of myself and I believe confidence is the utmost importance of one’s life. Just like any other person, I want to set the BEST first impression. I carry myself genuinely but sometimes with a tinge of haughtiness. I leave my house always well dressed, not sloppy. I speak to strangers politely and with a proud aura. Yet with my friends, I am a cheerful and mischievous person. However, my pride often is my down fall. I tend to be a perfectionist. I always want to be right. I always want to win.
But I have learnt. AH!!! The importance of friends. They are always there to remind you. When you fall, they are always there to remind you about where you have gone wrong. Yet, we are talking about self esteem. These is where friends can make you are break you. Once being fat, I had very low self esteem. I would be afraid to go out, speak to people and worst still, I was afraid of making friends. Everything people said to me could affect me easily. Why? Because I was different. I was fat.When you have friends who accept you the way you are, you will be comfortable being around people. However when friends make negatives remarks about you or even laughing at you can lower all of one’s self esteem.
We always tell people that they can think about whatever they want and that we do not care, but when they actually do so can we really accept it? All these are about self esteem. Simply being proud can easily lift up one’s self esteem but is it really the perfect solution? Or is it better for one to be fully genuine for people to trust and in the end be made used of due to innocence.
There is so much to ponder, so much to learn, so many solutions. Yet one solution leads to another question or maybe another problem. Likewise is self esteem. It does not stop here neither does it remain the same. We can only learn more about ourselves and be self- acceptant for if we cannot accept ourselves, how can we people expect people to accept us for who we are. We are not super heroes, we can’t please everyone. Being bad in one person’s point of view does not mean that you are bad to another hundred people. Life is where opinions are made so don’t take them to heart or too hard. Well.... continue to ponder.....
Life really is beautifully made, but it is not that beautiful....hmm... ... =)
Gracia Chua
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Boy , I Love You .
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